Day 352 ~ "God" "Heal"

What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

What have I learned about myself this past year {blogging}..?  hmmmm... First off... I would like to make sure you know up front... I never had blogged before until I started this blog 349 days ago.  Secondly... I never intended on learning anything.  HAHA! LOL!  No but seriously... It wasn't my intention...   Check out what my intention(s) were/are here.

So here goes... What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

"G" is for...  God.   

This last year has been one lasting experience for me.  Through blogging I have learned so much... about myself... and about life.  

With that said... I have also learned that I need to lean on my Lord a bit more.  With the {continued} growth of my faith in God, I have realized that God has in deed seen me through some tough times.

I also have realized that if I would have leaned on Him a bit more {than what I did} that things may have not been as tough.

How do I know this?  Because in the last year I have learned to let go {quite} a bit and let Him take over... and ... He has.

He has because I feel that much closer to Him.-

"H" is for...  Heal{ing}.  

I don't know what I thought I would get out of this year of blogging... actually I never once looked for self gratification.  

Remember this is meant for my children, to let them into "my world"... to know who I am and what is in my heart.  Secondly, for family and friends... and most importantly, in hopes that I could somehow help another woman than may find herself in similar situations as I did.

Therefore the fact that I post before you that I so feel that I have let go of a lot of issues... I have forgiven... I have stood up stronger... and have come out of this lighter.

I feel like a tremendous amount of weight has been lifted off of my shoulders... seriously.  

Now... I still have a tough day here and there... but instead of completely feeling a sense of defeat... I now feel like I stumbled and I need to get up and brush my knees off.

I know it sounds simple... and I am not pretending that it to be so... Quite frankly it is a lot of work.  But well worth it.

Plus I have a five year old li'l girl who depends on me to provide her with my best.  {and} I am here to do my best to provide her with the proper tools to help her survive this crazy world. 

30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place." 32 In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, 33 who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go.

~Deuteronomy 1:30-33 

Tomorrow...  What I Learned About Me... from A to Z ... the letter(s) "I".

(here's to you finding your...)

 Peace,  

13 days to go...  {really?!}  

read about this count down in my "About my Blog" page

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Taking Back My Life ~ Making It My Own.  U.S Copyright laws apply.  © 2012 

Day 351 ~ "Faith"

What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

What have I learned about myself this past year {blogging}..?  hmmmm... First off... I would like to make sure you know up front... I never had blogged before until I started this blog 349 days ago.  Secondly... I never intended on learning anything.  HAHA! LOL!  No but seriously... It wasn't my intention...   Check out what my intention(s) were/are here.

So here goes... What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

"F" is for...  Faith.   {family and friends are good "f" words  too.}

I am not saying that blogging has given me faith... not at all.

What I will say is that through blogging... through plenty of time spent in deep thought... through many conversations with myself {no I'm not crazy!  LOL! }... through all this time...

I've gained a new insight if you will.

Through that new insight I have gained a new found faith in God.  

Through my faith in God I believe that all will be okay.  Let go.  Let God.

Through my faith in God I have gained a new found strength which helps me be patient for all the good that is yet to come.

As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.

~Emmanuel Teney

Tomorrow...  What I Learned About Me... from A to Z ... the letter(s) "G" & "H".

(here's to you finding your...)

 Peace,  

14 days to go...  {humbled.}  

read about this count down in my "About my Blog" page

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Taking Back My Life ~ Making It My Own.  U.S Copyright laws apply.  © 2012 

Day 350 ~ "Embrace" "Depression"... hmmm...

What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

What have I learned about myself this past year {blogging}..?  hmmmm... First off... I would like to make sure you know up front... I never had blogged before until I started this blog 349 days ago.  Secondly... I never intended on learning anything.  HAHA! LOL!  No but seriously... It wasn't my intention...   Check out what my intention(s) were/are here.

So here goes... What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

"D" is for...

Depression.  I couldn't help it... after all I have been dealing with it most of my life. 

I am not saying that having depression is cool... because it is not.  

Quite frankly it sucks being sad or just being in that downward mindset.  

I am not admitting that I just discovered this about myself, because I did not.  

But what I did discover is that with focus and HARD work I can now manage to pull myself out of the "funk" a little easier {and faster, AND not as often}... plus the fact that I can not allow Calley to see me down and learn from my actions.

According to the Centers for Disease Control, one in ten Americans report depression.  The operative word  there is "report". Implying that not everyone reports it.  Hmmmm...

"E" is for...

Embrace.  Embrace?   Yes....embrace, 

I have learned to embrace all that my Lord has put in my path, and what he has given me.  For some reason, He feels I can handle it.  

Let's think about this for a moment... everything that my Lord has placed in my path has not been the best,  

It has tested me.  it has tried me.  Best of all... it thought it had beaten me... BUT IT DID NOT!

Accepting my past for what it is ... is one thing...  but embracing the pain and accepting it for what it is... well that's a biggie!

Tomorrow...  What I Learned About Me... from A toZ ... the letter(s) "F".

Buddhism teaches you to embrace change.
~ Koo Stark

Sources:  http://www.cdc.gov/Features/dsDepression/   

(here's to you finding your...)

 Peace,  

15 days to go...  {humbled.}  

read about this count down in my "About my Blog" page

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Taking Back My Life ~ Making It My Own.  U.S Copyright laws apply.  © 2012