Day 352 ~ "God" "Heal"

What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

What have I learned about myself this past year {blogging}..?  hmmmm... First off... I would like to make sure you know up front... I never had blogged before until I started this blog 349 days ago.  Secondly... I never intended on learning anything.  HAHA! LOL!  No but seriously... It wasn't my intention...   Check out what my intention(s) were/are here.

So here goes... What I Learned About Me... from A to Z

"G" is for...  God.   

This last year has been one lasting experience for me.  Through blogging I have learned so much... about myself... and about life.  

With that said... I have also learned that I need to lean on my Lord a bit more.  With the {continued} growth of my faith in God, I have realized that God has in deed seen me through some tough times.

I also have realized that if I would have leaned on Him a bit more {than what I did} that things may have not been as tough.

How do I know this?  Because in the last year I have learned to let go {quite} a bit and let Him take over... and ... He has.

He has because I feel that much closer to Him.-

"H" is for...  Heal{ing}.  

I don't know what I thought I would get out of this year of blogging... actually I never once looked for self gratification.  

Remember this is meant for my children, to let them into "my world"... to know who I am and what is in my heart.  Secondly, for family and friends... and most importantly, in hopes that I could somehow help another woman than may find herself in similar situations as I did.

Therefore the fact that I post before you that I so feel that I have let go of a lot of issues... I have forgiven... I have stood up stronger... and have come out of this lighter.

I feel like a tremendous amount of weight has been lifted off of my shoulders... seriously.  

Now... I still have a tough day here and there... but instead of completely feeling a sense of defeat... I now feel like I stumbled and I need to get up and brush my knees off.

I know it sounds simple... and I am not pretending that it to be so... Quite frankly it is a lot of work.  But well worth it.

Plus I have a five year old li'l girl who depends on me to provide her with my best.  {and} I am here to do my best to provide her with the proper tools to help her survive this crazy world. 

30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place." 32 In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, 33 who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go.

~Deuteronomy 1:30-33 

Tomorrow...  What I Learned About Me... from A to Z ... the letter(s) "I".

(here's to you finding your...)

 Peace,  

13 days to go...  {really?!}  

read about this count down in my "About my Blog" page

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Day 305 ~ As an After Thought for "G"

I've been noticing lately that after a certain hour and after having sat in front of a computer screen for hours, my eyes, ... well let's just say that aren't what they used to be.  

It all starts with my rubbing my eyes, which in turn gets them a little watery.  Next thing I notice... HOLY COW! My eyes are barely open!  OPEN YOUR EYES, I tell myself.  I seriously notice a huge difference.. they were like slits!  How can anyone possibly see out!  Really!  Then... the BLURRRR sets in..  I start seeing ddoouubbllee.  YYoouu tthhiinnkk tthhiiss iiss aannnnooyyiinngg...... hhooww ddoo yyoouu tthhiinnkk II ffeeeell????  Okay .. I'll stop.. LOL!!  Not but seriously, this aging thing SUCKS!!

So by this time, I am seriously thinking..How much more do I need to finish tonight's post? Good, I am more or less done.  

Now, I go back and start reading my post over, checking my spelling, going over my grammar, making sure one last time everything makes sense.  As I finish a paragraph, I move on to the next and so on until I am done.  Once finished, I do one final read... just to make sure.  

You, would think that should do it.  Apparently not last night!

Next day, I always do a read over before I go on and start my next post...

HOLY CRAP!!  What the heck was up with my eyes last night?!  I know I did my final editing.  WTF! Are my eyes that bad?  How did I not notice all those errors?  Were  my eyes that tired?  I left out words... repeated myself... how embarrassing...  Needless to say, I corrected my errors.  Lord, I hope I caught all of them!  LOL!!

I am not convinced as to whether or not chat slang, online acronyms, text shorthand, email and instant message lingo... whatever you want to call it... is accepted or not in today's writing. 

Sometimes I think that grammar and spelling (for sure) should be respected.  Keep our language clean, traditional... I think you get the picture.  However... sometimes... the message... or ... the feeling... the writer is trying to convey welcomes the occasional acronym or slang.  Question now is, so would you rather read that I am laughing by my stating it, or does a mere "LOL" do?.  

Here I am participating in a HUGE blog hop of sorts, Blogging from A to Z Challenge April 2012 -  1,824 Bloggers have joined in this challenge, I being one of them.  Currently l am listed at number 1,443.  I have been reading at least five to seven or so blogs per day... These bloggers are serious bloggers!  Not that I am not serious about blogging... but some of these people are published authors!  Can you believe it?  I'm in a position to be read by published authors and I had all these mistakes... CRAP!  Talk about intimidating... and facing your fears!!  Oh well, no turning back.  Might as well make the best of it and hope that if any one of them that read my blog yesterday will return to read this post.

So.. I am hoping to somewhat redeem myself today by starting a little earlier, while my sight is nice and fresh!

As an after thought... good Grammar should have been my "G" word(s).  After all... where would we as [excellent] bloggers/writers (wink, wink) be without it? 

Arguments over grammar and style are often as fierce as those over IBM versus Mac, and as fruitless as Coke versus Pepsi and boxers versus briefs.  ~Jack Lynch

Use noon and midnight rather than 12:00 P.M. and 12:00 A.M. 

Spell out single-digit whole numbers.  Use numerals for numbers greater than nine.     Examples:  I want five copies.  I want 10 copies. 

Blogging A to Z Challenge April 2012... What will "H" have for us tomorrow?

Blessings to all!!

60 days to go...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Day 304 ~ "G" is for Grrreat!

Hahahaha!  Grrrreat is right!

Remember, (if you've been reading my A to Z Challenge, this question would apply to you as worded, otherwise this would be new information to you) ... I first stated that I was not going to read the blogs of my blogging brothers and sisters who are participating with me in the Blogging A to Z Challenge April 2012... only until I have posted my post first... then definitely I will read the posts.

Well... I went and did it!  I didn't mean to... but.. while participating in my daily blog hops I stumbled on three blogs in a row who were participating.

You're probably thinking, what's the big deal?

Thing is, I had sat down to write this post and I could not think of a single word that I would want to write about that started with "G" for the life of me!  I'm not being a drama queen either... really... I was thinking about it all day ... and nothing... zip... zilch... zero... nada! 

So I decided to visit my favorite li'l community ... voiceBoks...  such a great place to share your blog, meet other bloggers and read their work as well.  Well, enough with the free plug there... lol.. just kidding.  Anyway, I was making my daily rounds and then all of a sudden I stumbled on the first blog, their word was Grateful... OH CRAP!  I yelled.  While Calley hollered at me from the other room for swearing,  I realized what I had stumbled on.  How did I not think of that word?  I thought.  

I wonder if I would have kept thinking, would I have thought of that word?  Rats!  Now I can't use that word.  As ridiculous as that may sound, I couldn't even read her post yet.  I can't go back to check.. it's just that I do not want anyone's post influencing my writing.

Okay you're right, I thought.  I was being ridiculous.  SO I decided that I would come back later and to read the blog [I'll even come back and let you know the blog's link after I read it.]  I didn't think twice about continuing my daily rounds ... and then WHAM-O!! Another blog, this time their word was Gratitude.

Again with the voices in my head.  How did I not think of that word?  I thought.  I wonder if I would have kept staring at my screen... would I have thought of that word?  Rats!  Now I can't use that word.  That's a good one.  I'm grateful, I would have thought of either words.  Would I?  

I didn't want to be ridiculous, so without thought I just went on my merry way... back to my rounds.  AND AGAIN!! BAM!!  It was instantaneous.  Listen, I can't even tell you the word, because as soon as I saw the "G" I went back to the previous page.

I immediately came back to this page.. Oh  great!  I wish I hadn't taken a break!!  I wish I had not ... blah, blah, blah... and then all of a sudden... out of no where... I just let out all this air.. and out came a big roar... Grrrreat!

Then all of a sudden I thought... Grrrreat?  

YES! Grrrreat!

Grrrreat, is my "G" word.  (Big smile... why not?)  wink, wink

 When life gives you lemons, make lemonade...   ~author unkown

Blogging A to Z Challenge April 2012... What will "H" have for us on Monday?

Blessings to all!!

61 days to go...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Taking Back My Life ~ Making It My Own.  U.S Copyright laws apply.  ©