WoW! Just one word.. wow.
So this is me picking myself up, and brushing myself off.
These have been a couple of rough days and unbelievably enlightening all the same. It sucks hurting... however we can't... or rather, I can't allow the sadness and pain that I feel (for my losses) to take over who I am and the happiness I am trying to build.
Today I spent the better part of my day re-cooping and talking to a very dear friend of mine. We met when we were both pregnant with our first borns... who were born a week apart. {and} we've been friends ever since.
Having shared that with you~ it's only a given that she has seen the highs and lows of the last twenty-five years of my life. She has even gone to battle for me. wink, wink. Literally. {and} More or less I to her.
Have you ever been in a dark place (sad) and your phone has rung... you look at it and then ignore the call? There is no way that you feel like talking to anyone... however talking to someone is the best thing you can do.
Listen, you don't have to convince me ... the last thing I wanted to do is answer my phone... however knowing that the other person on the line knew everything that had happened to me. Meaning I did not have to stop to explain... she just knew... made it a little easier to answer.
I knew that my "sister from another mister" was just the person to talk to. Not having a traditional family, I have always looked to my friends and their families for advice and life's lessons... and well let's just say that my friend was someone to look to. She is a wonderful, funny and all 'round great person!
As a side note... there were other great people that reached out to me today. and if you called, please, please do not be offended if I did not pick up. The fact that you reached out to me means the world to me. I will not forget your caring.
So... needless to say after three hours, thirteen minutes and twenty-three seconds I was able to "stop my sobbing" {as the Pretenders would say}... wipe off the tears... catch my breath... and regroup. [and yes, you read it right, we talked for three hours, thirteen minutes and twenty-three seconds]
I wanted to share some of my sweet friend's wise words [that helped me pick myself up]... "it's hard work being happy." and "sometimes you need to take time off to be sad... and that's okay." ... "it's okay to be sad".
So... it's back to work for me. Back to working on being happy.
It's hard work being happy. ~Jeannie Nohles Ellis
(here's to you finding your...)
Peace,
22 days to go...
... for a, l & c. You are my sunshine(s).
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