Day 212 ~ I Believe In Myself

Weirdest thing just happened... I was watching a new CBS tv show and was taken aback by the following dialogue...

So you crawled in a hole to die... honey, don't you know that a good life is the best revenge...

too late for that...

it's never too late... I have battled more than my share of demons and came out the better for it and I'm not going to let you crawl back into that hole.

What's so weird about that?   It was as if I had tuned into a segment of my life.  Yes!  Exactly!!  I have said those words to myself before.  Not quite the same words, but enough for it to raise the hair on the back of my neck.

SO now what I say to myself is,,, Crawling into a hole is NOT an option!!  Can not get anything done from a hole either!!

I start 2012 with the strong belief that all will be okay.  Almost as if this is going to be "the" year.  I start my year stronger, better and with a new healthier outlook!!  I even start my year off with a growing fondness in myself!!

I have found that there is only one thing that heals every problem, and that is:  to love yourself.  When people start to love themselves more each day, it's amazing how their lives get better.    ~ Louise L. Hay

Blessings to all!!

153 days to go...

PS... Sons, I love and miss you.  To the moon and stars above and back.  You are my sunshines.

All contents herein are protected under Copyright laws and can not be used, altered or copied.  All accounts herein are written by Carla B Karam and are true accounts of her life.  Some names may be changed to protect the innocent or protect me from the guilty.  (just kidding...wink, wink)

Day 206 ~ In With the New * Hello 2012

Okay.  All done.  With what, you ask?  I have just prepared myself for 2012.  I have written down all I want to say good bye to of 2011... read it out loud to myself... and burned it all!  A lighter was a little more accessible than a balloon [to place the note in it and then letting it go].  See Day 7.

1. All negative thoughts of my past
2. Things I can not change or control

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Then, I took another piece of paper... made a list of what I want for myself... and placed it on my fridge.

1. Stay positive (if a negative thought shows up, replace with two!)
2. Continue to work on being healthy
3. keep BlogGinG!!
4. Make My Life My Own
5. Work towards that book of mine...
6. Do one thing each day to better myself
7. Date night once per month
8. Family night once per week
9. Tell my family I love them each time I see them (already do this)
10. Be a better wife, mother, daughter, and above all be a better friend
11. Keep laughter in our lives each day 

In my lifetime I have made plenty of New Year's resolutions... succeeded in some... and in others... didn't do so good or the resolution sort of just faded out.  I either always wanted to loose weight, be happy or find the perfect man.  Or all of the above.  You know, the important things in life.  LOL!! (my last attempt at humor this year)  

As years went by, life just got to the point that at the end of each year I did not even think of making a resolution.  Didn't even cross my mind.  Didn't bother.

This year so much has happened.  I feel that my life has turned around.  I feel that nothing but good lies ahead.  Full steam ahead!  TooT!  TooT!  

Seriously now.  I know that everything may not be perfect now, and it may be a while before it is.  But... I have decided that being negative... crying... closing off from the world... laying in fetal position... well it has not gotten me anywhere... nor has any good come from it.

Why not give it a shot?  Why not be positive?  Why not wait for the good to come from the bad that has crossed my path?  And most certainly... Why not give a happy childhood to my daughter, along with healthy habits to make her a better person... a better woman.

So I say hello to 2012!  I welcome you with open arms.  I am excited to see what we can accomplish together... and all the good that will come from it.

A Happy New Year from my family to yours!  May all your demons be gone... and may all your dreams come true!  

Should old acquaintance be forgot,

and never brought to mind?

Should old acquaintance be forgot,

and auld lang syne (days of long ago)?

For auld lang syne, my dear,

for auld lang syne,

we’ll take a cup o’ kindness yet,

for auld lang syne.

Robert Burns (25 January 1759 – 21 July 1796) 

Blessings to all!!

159 days to go...

PS... Sons, I love and miss you.  To the moon and stars above and back.  You are my sunshines.

All contents herein are protected under Copyright laws and can not be used, altered or copied.  All accounts herein are written by Carla B Karam and are true accounts of her life.  Some names may be changed to protect the innocent or protect me from the guilty.  (just kidding...wink, wink)

Picture credits... images are courtesy of Bing images.

Day 201 ~ Christmas & The Day After

Awe.   The day after Christmas, always such a let down.  After such hustle and bustle, holiday cheer in the air... it was here and now it's gone.  (big sad face)  I always used to wish we could stretch the day out, you know add a few hours here and there-  just so it didn't seem like it went by in such a flash.  

Actually, I am sighing with relief!  Finally!  The rush to get everything "Christmas" perfect for everyone, you know the right gift, the right decorations, food, etc.. it's over.  Not to mention the actual "big" moment... the moment you actually start to cook your family's Christmas meal.

I cook the green bean casserole, mashed potatoes and onions and white sauce.  My mother and father in law take over the turkey and yams.  And our beautiful cousins bring the desert!  We've been doing it this way ever since Dean, Calley and I moved here, and we have gotten it to a point that it all flows so harmoniously.  Except this year we somehow forgot all about the gravy.  YES, the G-R-A-V-Y!  How the heck do you forget the gravy?  Especially when there are two people planning the meal!  Ai-ya-yai!  However...

Once again... our dinner... was (and the choir sings out) AWESOME!!

So, now what?

Well, there were the after Christmas sales.  For the first time in a long time, I didn't rush out early to grab something up.  Calley and I showed up late morning, around eleven, very curious to see what we would find.  I think between the first moment we walked through the doors at the local Target and walked out, we set a new record!  We were in and out within a half hour.  At one point I turned to Calley and said that there wasn't anything grabbing at me.  Nothing that I HAD TO HAVE.  A lady turned to me and chuckled in agreement... and I just said that I was at a point in my life that I ask myself... "Is it a want or a need?"  She could not agree more.

Now... for New Years!  ...

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years.  ~ Abraham Lincoln (American 16th US President (1861-1865))

Oh... I have to point out "D-A-Y  2-0-1"   ...   Can I get a "WHOOP, WHOOP"!

Blessings to all!!

164 days to go...

PS... I love and miss you boys.  To the moon and stars above and back.  You are my sunshines.

All contents herein are protected under Copyright laws and can not be used, altered or copied.  All accounts herein are written by Carla B Karam and are true accounts of her life.  Some names may be changed to protect the innocent or protect me from the guilty.  (just kidding...wink, wink)

Picture credits... images are courtesy of Bing images.