Day 148 ~ New Rage

I don't know how to say this, other than just blurting it out... I've been quite irritable lately.  Seems like the slightest little thing can set me off... anything or anyone is fair game.  

Funny thing is that more times than not, the result of this is that I feel like a complete jack ass after the fact and then I feel compelled to apologize afterwards. 

I have to tell you that I did not used to be this way.  I used to be happy all the time.  Very tolerable of others.  Let me tell you that It definitely does not help that I can not tolerate stupidity to begin with... now, well let's just say that I do not have a problem pointing out the obvious.

Regardless, I must say that I do try to avoid volatile situations.  If I see a situation ahead of time that I know I am going to rip someone's head off (figuratively speaking of course,) I will send Dean in to take care of it.  I must say that so far this system is working out great. 

“To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.”    ~  Robert Muller

I am thankful that I am smart enough to figure things out.

Blessings to all!!

217 days to go...

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Day 124 ~ You Only Live Once...

Sometimes I just can't wrap my head around a persons's actions, let alone their non-actions.

I found myself scratching my head more and more as my day went on today... why is it that some people do not find it important to trade dialogue... this is what some people call having a conversation or possibly a discussion about recent events... good or bad.  

All I ask... which I really don't think that I am being unreasonable... is that if something bothers you, then let's talk!  We may have mixed our signals ...

Listen, I know that most people are uncomfortable approaching a family member, a friend or even a coworker, over a misunderstanding, let alone if they have been wronged against.  It's a tough position to be put in ~ been there done that... however, if one thinks about it and takes a gentle approach at the situation, before it festers, I think we can learn to understand one another...  and more importantly there would not be any time loss.   

I mean, I have the perfect example, my sister and I, and please realize that the dynamics of our relationship were a little more complicated than not... we lost 25 plus years;  my sons and I have been estranged two years, however, since July there has been some communication on and off... currently it seems as if we are off.  (sad face)

The saddest part of both of my sons' estrangement with me is the part that is affecting their relationship with Calley ~ their little sister.  

Calley is such a darling little girl.  A little girl who talks about her brothers everyday with such adoration, including them in her prayers as well.  Calley is having her fifth birthday in three days and the last time she saw her brothers was just shortly after turning two.

For these reasons... I do my best at apologizing when I am in the wrong, and then practicing the art of tolerance and forgiving those other times.  Not only that, but... You Only Live Once!

There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love.     ~  Bryant H. McGill

Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.  ~  Tom Robbins

Tolerance is the virtue of the man without convictions.    ~  G.K. Chesterton

Blessings to all!!

241 days to go...

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