Day 106 ~ Say Cheeese!!

Have I told you all lately how much I love my mother in law Gene? ... Well... I do!!

After going through some gloomy days, including mourning over my sons... I have been spending a lot of time helping Gene, or rather mom (because that's what I call her and it is weird to call or refer to her as Gene, if you get what I mean)...anyways...

Mom is such an amazing woman.  Here it has been five days shy of loosing her mother, Nana, and the first words out of mom's mouth when Nana passed, "I have lost my best friend!".  Still chokes me up when I think about those words.  Anyways, as I was saying, here its been just five days shy of a month and not only has she been taking care of her own family, but in addition has been going through her mother's home of nearly thirty years.

I've been in my house for three years now and have accumulated some things as you can imagine... but can you imagine THIRTY YEARS?!?!  One word... WOW!!!

Standard sized recycle bin

So Calley and I have been helping mom too... I've been in charge of going through photographs... Nana loved taking pictures!! to say the least.  I'd say I've gone through thousands of pictures covering her life span of eighty-five years, and still have a third left... unless we find a hidden box somewhere else.  hahaha

So while I have been going through all these pictures, some thoughts have been going through my mind....  

6" left to the top!

1. From now on my pictures must contain a loved on in them!  - of all those pictures Nana took, two thirds of them were of landscaping, plants, beautiful flowers, landscapes, her home, her doggies and koi fish. 
2. If taking pictures of loved ones or friends, now that we have the technology, please TAG them!!  If we would know who some of Nana and Grand-dad's friends were in some of these pictures, I'm sure they would have loved to get them.

So... the next time I see a beautiful flower and I want to take a picture of it.... "Calley, come take a picture!!"

A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely.      ~  Pam Brown

God intended motherhood to be a relay race. Each generation would pass the baton on to the next.     ~  Mary Pride

Blessings to all!!


259 days to go...

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Day 105 ~ Tender Kisses

After surviving the first time Calley had "something scary" wake her up in the middle of the night, it sure was blissful waking up next to her this morning.

As I felt her tender little kisses on my cheek, I pretended I was still asleep... and then before she knew it... I was smothering her with "mommy" hugs and kisses!  Just as I think about it right now, as my heart smiles, I do too.

This is how I want to start every day!  All the while I was kissing Calley, I couldn't help thanking God for being so blessed.  

Telling myself that it was okay for me to mourn the loss of my boys was one of the better ideas I have had lately.  For some reason it had a positive sub-conscience affect on me.  It allowed me to be okay with being sad, and then "starting over" per say today.

After having such a loving morning with my little girl, (which by the way I just realized yesterday that she will be turning five, three weeks from tomorrow,) I decided to enjoy the rest of the morning watching her play at the park... I even had Daddy meet us there, Calley was so surprised!  

I spent the entire day enjoying my family, even the little things in life.  What a beautiful day that God gave me today!  

Thank you God.  I am so grateful for the life you have given me.

"At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person.Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us."   ~ Albert Schweitzer

"He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has."   ~ Epictetus

"As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them."  ~ John F. Kennedy 

This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.   Psalm 118:24  

Blessings to all!!


260 days to go...

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Day 104 ~ It's Gonna Be All Right

Today was not only day two of saying good bye to All My Children, but yet another eye opening moment for me in the acceptance of life in general, with or without my boys...

At the end of today's episode, we were saying good bye to another  mecca Pine Valley family, that we have grown to know and love.  In doing so, and without giving too much away for those who are recording the episode, I was once again watching my life flash before me.  While all of this was going on, All My Children was playing this wonderful song [ending the episode],  which by the way I spent two hours online today trying to search for it anywhere and everywhere on the internet... I tried several searches, different websites and not a mention or credit to this well written and beautifully sung song.


So... I tried my best to understand the lyrics so I could share with you the words that touched my heart so tenderly and opened my eyes wide...  and if by chance, after you all see today's episode #1.10709 and know the song or find out, would you please share it with me.

When its getting late and you're feeling all alone... 

You think there's no one listening, need someone to call... 

its the middle of the night and you need a friendly face... 

I'm the one who can lift you up, and who'll say... 

"It's gonna be, it's gonna be okay" .... 

If you ever need someone to make you smile... 

holds your hand and gets you through the hardest times...

I was running outside, I'll travel all night, I'll do anything just to be by your side and tell you...  

"everything's all right... its gonna be gonna be all right"...

As long as we're together I know we can do anything... 

as long as we're together we can make it through anything... 

no matter what you got me, I'm never going to let you fall...

  

This song was so sweet... made me think.... and helped me see and understand that as long as I have those around who I love and I love, It's gonna be all right!    

Blessings to all!!


261 days to go...

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