Day 141 ~ Believing In Myself

Seems to me that I may be onto something here... today I found myself once again surprising myself.  

"I have to forgive my sons' father. not for him... but for me.  I have allowed what he has done to me to affect me and my life for far too long.  I actually let all of it happen to me by not believing in myself and not standing up to him .  As far as my boys... well although they are young men now and are old enough to do as they please... this is now their choice.  They are allowing their father to continue to "brainwash" and lay controlling head games with them.  I love them and always will.  They are my sons and I do forgive them... but if they insist on not talking to me, it isn't for something I did.  As an afterthought, they may be upset at me because of my blog... I stand by what I write and believe in everything I say,  I have done nothing wrong, and write of the truth.  I would do this all over again."

As much as my heart aches for my boys, I believe in what I am doing just as much.  I realize that they have not been under the best tutelage, however they should remember what we went through together, and their father's continued suggestions to not contact me.  

Regardless, now... it is all in the past, can't change it.  All I can do is be the best I can be for myself, and my family.  And as far as the time we continue to spend apart... well, I will continue my blog for them [because I know that one day they will thank me for it,] and I will make them proud of me.

Today I came across the following quote, "I bless the past with love, take a deep breath, and move gently into the new." by Louise L. Hay.  For some reason Louise continues to pop into my life just at the right time, with just the right words.  She could not be anymore accurate.  I'm sure you would agree with me that Louise L. Hay is definitely on my "Dream Team."  

I have to admit that after having read these quotes, I realized that I am actually believing in myself, really liking what I am about and where I am heading.  I can't believe I just wrote that, because I actually am feeling it! 

Every day it gets easier to look into my own eyes in the mirror and say, "I love you just the way you are."  ~ Louise L. Hay

Received word that Shelly is doing well in her recovery process, however is in a lot of pain.  Please continue to pray for my friend's pain to subside and for a quick, healthy recovery.




 Blessings to all!!

224 days to go...


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Day 139 ~ The Power of Prayer!

The last two days have seemed to drag on with the anticipation of Shelly's surgery.  Having this weigh heavy on my heart made it easy for me to fast for Shelly.  That was the least I could do in her honor.  It was tough to do, especially when my stomach started to ache.. which then  I had to eat a little... however all in all, with prayer at my side, the thought crossed my mind that I wish I could have done more.

As my day was in full swing, I received a text at about 2:30 this afternoon. Which at first I found myself reading three times before I realized what I was reading! 

I could not believe it.  I had received word from Shelly's husband himself... "Shelly was out of surgery and all went well..."  He even shared that he was going to be able to see her within the hour.

PRAISE GOD!!!

By the time I was finished reading his text for the ump-teenth time, I was sobbing.  Tears of JoY!  

I can not begin to tell you how happy I am for Shelly and her family.  I pray for a smooth and quick recovery.  She will be away from home for about two weeks.

I realized last night that I really had not told you too much about Shelly.  Her sister, Marlene's little girl and Calley were in the same class at the  little Christian school I used to teach at.  Marlene and Shelly both have had their children enrolled at the same school for years.  These ladies are the definition of what sisters should be!  They are good people, with good hearts... raising good people...  

Shelly is a terrific person, with a great personality. (Marlene too.)  She has a beautiful family.  Two beautiful daughters, one in 7th grade and the other in 4th, who are both their mother's daughters.  Shelly is an amazing mother, who without a second thought drives hours upon hours for a volleyball tournament [in one weekend.]  A wonderful role model.  Devoted not only to her family, but to her God as well.  A woman of faith and devotion.  Putting her God first.

I am very happy to pray for this family and to call them my friends.

So we fasted and petitioned our God about this, and he answered our prayer.  ~ Ezra 8:23

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.    ~ Matthew 7:7-8

 Blessings to all!!


226 days to go...

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Day 137 ~ Praying For Shelly

Praying for Shelly
Tues.  Oct 24th

Just as there is happiness in life, there is sorrow too.  


A friend of mine will be going into surgery on Tuesday.  The surgeons will be removing a "benign" tumor that is resting on an auditory nerve.  As would be expected, there are a few risks, one of which she may end up with permanent hearing loss in the one ear... and another being that there may be partial face paralysis [on the same side.]  


I do not know that she would like to be mentioned in my blog, so I will only mention a first name... 


I am asking for your prayers for Shelly on Tuesday.  Her surgery will be anywhere from 6 to 8 hours, it could even go longer.  Her sister and I will be fasting on Tuesday, the same day in her honor.


On a happier note... Today was a day for spending time with family and friends... I especially love it when "the day" comes around [each year] that we get to celebrate the day one of us was blessed upon our family.   Today we celebrated the birthdays of Calley, her 5th, Dominic (my cousin,) his 18th  and Dean's 46th !

Funny... I was just thinking... [no funny comments now...] (wink wink)... each one of them are entering what seems to be such different stages of life, however as different as they are~ they are alike.  Meaning, that each of them are about to experience very special times in their lives.  How exciting for each one of them!  

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.    ~ Matthew 7:7-8

 Blessings to all!!

228 days to go...

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