Day 394 ~ Taking It All In

So bummed.  I didn't get my next I Am Second video (#16)... I did contact them, sent an email... however, no response up until now.

I have decided to give you an I Am Second 22 Day Challenge update... you know... how I am handling it all... or rather the after affects.

I do have to say that each day has given me more and more to think about.  One thing for sure is that I am not the only one who has felt the way I have.  

Each video has touched me... it has sort of put a spotlight on different feelings I have felt and experienced throughout my life.

One thing that has been confirmed with this challenge is that I have a control issue when it comes to my life.  lol!  HA!  As if I didn't already know that!

Another confirmation is the anger that has brewed in my heart all these years.  

Funny... I was telling my friend tonight that I wasn't always angry.  I once was a very happy person.  Even a little too happy as I have been told.  It wasn't until I started fighting for my children that the hurt that was being done to me started building upon itself as days would go by.  

You see something would happen, and as I would be in the process of processing it, then something else would happen... and then I would have to process that... and so on and so on...

No different than playing a game of tackle football day after day... having your body slammed day after day {without a break}, getting bruises on top of bruises... not allowing your body to go through the healing process.  Then one day just not being able to play as well as you did on the first day of play... to the point of not recognizing yourself.

Granted... I had no choice.  I had to be in the game for my sons sake.  All the while taking emotional and mental beatings after beatings.  I was able to stay in the game itself... it wasn't until the after math... the dust never settled and I broke. 

Fighting the battle and facing each day made me weaker.  I did try going to church... however I did not keep it up and was discouraged even more.

Today, I can only imagine what it could have been like if I would have really gave God control of my game play.  

But that was then... and now is now.

Waiting for Day 16 of my 22 day challenge, I feel God in my life more today than on Day 1.  Maybe not getting my sixteenth video was a good thing... it's given me the opportunity of looking back and taking it all in.

We are Second when we put Jesus First. Seconds are bold to lift up Jesus and tell others. Are you ready to become a stronger Second?

I challenge YOU to take the I Am Second [22] Day Challenge... Can you spare maybe fifteen minutes in a day?

Do not worry. Learn to pray about everything. Give thanks to God as you ask Him for what you need. ⁷ The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  ~ Philippians 4:6-7 (NLV)

I AM SECOND.

[here's to you finding your... ]

Peace...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Day 388 ~ I Am Second Challenge Day 11 of 22

This is Day 11 of my challenge... {and} my eleventh video...

... Shannon Culpepper's father moved out of Shannon's family home when she was seven, leaving her and her mother behind.  As she grew into a young woman she did not stop seeking the approval of her father all those years... eventually she found herself in a relationship with an older man when she was a senior in high school.  For as much as she loved her fiance, she learned with time that Christ is first.

Shannon Culpepper: I am Second

I too experienced exactly the same as Shannon... a few differences though... I was nine when my father left; while being only ten miles away, might as well have been 600; and my 'fiance' was only a year older than me and I did marry him.


Another difference Shannon and I have is that It has taken me much longer to realize the importance of God in my life, and putting Him first.


I am starting to get the hang of it [putting Him first that is]... however leading a Christian life or rather 'Jesus' like (as in What would Jesus do?} behavior isn't all that easy.  You'd have to be perfect.


As an example... living by the golden rule {treat others as you would want to be treated}, loving your neighbor, for another... being kind and non-judgmental... and of course being forgiving.


NOW... If that's the case... then I have broken every rule this week.


I allowed everything and everyone get to me this week.  Not only that... but I reacted to it all... and nastily!


What I can say for myself is... I do not regret what points I was trying to make ('trying' being the operative word) ... however it was how I reacted and said things.  I was an ass as far as that is concerned. 


Maybe it was a test to see if I could control myself? HA! If that's the case... then I failed!  LOL!  At this point all I can do is laugh.  It is what it is.  Just a reminder that I most definitely am not perfect.


BUT... I do respect myself enough to stand up how I want to be treated... I just have to be nicer about it {that's all}.


{and} as Shannon learned, Christ is the only one that will always love you... always be there for you... always pick you up.


Because, He is First... I am Second.

We are Second when we put Jesus First. Seconds are bold to lift up Jesus and tell others. Are you ready to become a stronger Second?

I challenge YOU to take the I Am Second [22] Day Challenge... Can you spare maybe fifteen minutes in a day?

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”  Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.  ~Matthew 18:21-22 (NIV)

I AM SECOND.

[here's to you finding your... ]

Peace...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Took It... Making It... Living It... My Life .  © 2012  U.S Copyright laws apply.