Day 345 ~ When Life Gives You Lemons...

Okay so I am at day three of re-grouping from a two day melt down.  HAHAHA!*  

*although not funny whatsoever... I have to allow myself to laugh and make light of it all at some point.

Yes.  I am feeling a little better.  {and} with God's will, tomorrow I will feel even better than today and so on.  Not that the feeling of loss ever goes away, but time will {eventually} help lessen the ache.  Puts a little distance between the past and me, if you will.

However, I think... actually, I feel that this time I things will be a little different.

Why? You ask. 

Well.  Allow me.  heehee ;)

First thing, the last 344 days have not been spent in vain.  I have spent each day learning a little more than the day before on how to better my life.  All the way around.

So ... having said that... and for as much as what I have experienced in my life is a sad tale [wink, wink] ... it happened.

Yes it happened.

{and} There's nothing I can do about it.  It is what it is.  It's done.  

Now... I just have to experiment just a tad more with my "recipe"... and then I will be able to make the best lemonade with all these "lemons" I have been so graciously given!

In other words... I have to make the best of it all. Or rather... enough is enough.  Being that I can't make any of that better.  Not asking for a better outcome, but a better understanding and acceptance of it all.  

At this point all I want is to be happy, and help others to accomplish the same.  Or a least help them smile.

So in order to truly move forward... I have to let go of "it" all once and for all... or better yet... accept it all.  Accept and forgive.  Forgive everyone... more importantly forgive myself once in for all {for allowing it all to happen}.

Then find a way to use my experience for something positive. 

**UPDATE**

Last weekend, after what turned out to be a four hour class, I became a formal member of my church.  I also spoke to the Pastor about getting involved with a battered women's organization... 

I think the next step is to meet with my Pastor again to discuss the groups I want to be involved in.  The only other thing that I did mention to him was that I would like to become a part of a Bible study group that is reading the Bible as a refresher course, better yet a beginner's group*.

*I studied the bible as a child {I attended Sunday school and St. Monica's Catholic School in Santa Monica, California.  However... that was ages ago!... I may have lived according to the ten commandments, but now I am discovering the Bible all over again as new.

Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let     the righteous be shaken.   ~Psalm 55:22

(here's to you finding your...)

 Peace,  

20 days to go...  {really ? :)  }  

read about this count down in my "About my Blog" page

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Day 159 ~ A Real Life Fairy Tale

VP Joe Biden, Capt. Mark Kelly,  Rep. Gabby Giffords,
 retirement ceremony at White House
(photo by David Lienemann, White House)

I sit here not only in awe, but feeling an array of emotions as I watch Diane Sawyer tell the story of Congresswoman Gabrielle Giffords and Mark Kelly on ABC's 20/20.

Learning what Gabby has accomplished in a mere ten months is a true miracle.  Similarly, I see what she has been through and what she has conquered. . .    Who am I to complain about anything!?!?  for that matter, who is anyone to complain?

Oh believe me, I know what I have been through with life, relationships, and my sons... somehow, I feel that in the scheme of things, it does not compare to what she is having to undergo.

The silver lining in this all, is how much her husband Mark obviously loves her.  WOW!!  This man is an amazing husband, who evidently loves his wife to no ends. In sickness and in health...  Watch out guys... looks like Mark has raised the bar!

And before any of you say it... Oh I was crying all right... no doubt about it!  I am not about to deny it one bit! ... during the entire show too!   

It wasn't so much the fact that she was shot, or what she is even going through to recuperate. . .  it was the way Mark spoke of Gabby; the way he said it, how he said it; the way he cared for her; his constant belief and his positive being! . . .  and it was all for Gabby!

No... I am not envious, jealous, or smitten in any way.  It was the miracle of it all.  The way Gabby has forged forward, the way Mark has been by her side, their love, their forgiveness...

What blessed people!  A real life fairy tale.

Don't risk regret, life can change in an instance.  ~ a message to all from Gabby's step-daughters, Claudia and Claire Kelly 

You're, the closest to heaven that I have ever been.  ~ engraved inside Gabby's wedding ring

I am thankful for the love I share with my husband. 

Blessings to all!!

206 days to go...

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