Day 84 ~ Tomorrow I Will Do Better

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Can you say exhausted?  There are a few things that are great about being busy... first, you don't have time to think about things- you have to act now, and think later!   Then.. time goes by fast!  Granted, you never want to wish time away.  Just trust me - time does just fine on its own.  Finally, you often loose weight because half the time you forget to eat.  (wink, wink!)

Well... now there's something old to consider... life.  Regardless of what is going on at the moment... hence being there for my mother in law... I still have to take care of my own life.

Prior to Nana's passing, I had plans.  Learning more and more about the type of woman Nana was, I am compelled on moving forward in her name. 

I need to get back on track, move forward in order to accomplish what I want and expect from myself.  

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First thing is first.  I will continue to write my blog and continue to heal.  My other project...~ I will be doing is a Lifestyle Change which is meant to do a redesign of my diet and exercise routine so that I may lead a healthy lifestyle.  My LifeStyle Change Redesign will also include a blog.  I had planned to start this the first of September and would last through March.

My wii Fit Plus 21-day Challenge was just that... a challenge.  In the 21 days I was able to loose just under nine pounds.  Six pounds shy of my goal.  Even so... I felt great, although it was a crazy challenge.  Especially when I had set out to work out twenty-one days in a row without a break- which I did complete!!  (big smile!)

As I think about what is yet to come... I stop right there.  I am not going to over analyze anything, especially when I'm so tired.  I am just going to finish this post up, relax and finish my tea, thank the Lord for my day, and have faith that tomorrow... well, I will do at least one thing to make it a better day than today.

       “Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.”    ~    Mary Anne Radmacher

 “What we are today comes from our thoughts of yesterday, and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow: Our life is the creation of our mind.”       Buddha

 “Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in, forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day, you shall begin it well and serenely...”        Ralph Waldo Emerson

 Blessings to all! 

281 days to go

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Day 71 ~ There's Something to Say About Structure!

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WOW~!!  I can't believe it... two revelations in one week!!??

I am almost positive that you have noticed, as well,  that something has been going on with me... I can tell, especially in my writing.  There's something missing.  ... and ... finally, after being back from our annual family vacation a mere two weeks ... (the light bulb turned on again) ... I know what's been going on... what's taken the "it" out of my heart, mind and soul and most of all, my writing...

First... I am missing structure.  Before leaving on our "family holiday" I was feeling great.  Anticipating seeing friends at my high school reunion... anticipating seeing the ocean, smelling the ocean air and feeling the breeze against my skin.  I was working out and doing great on my wii Fit Plus Challenge and I was eating healthy.

As I have mentioned... being healthy, eating healthy and feeling healthy is a lifestyle not a temporary fix.  

As soon as we "rolled" into LA... my weight loss challenge really became a CHALLENGE!!  It became almost uncomfortable telling your "host", or rather family, that I was watching what I was eating... or rather that I was on a healthy diet.  

IT WAS AS IF I OPENED A CAN OF WORMS!! by doing so.  Everyone had an opinion or their own diet stories... and no sooner as the words came out of my mouth... the food came "TEN FOLD"!   Not to mention, asking to set up my wii... this meant taking over someone's television and their living space as well.

To sum it all up, I had to replace my exercising on the wii with natural exercise...  (walking to the beach... walking on the sand... etc..)  and did they best I could with eating healthy items. 

SOLUTION:  I have decided to place structure back into my life with a NEW wii fit plus challenge, actually more of a change of lifestyle challenge and maintenance... MORE IMPORTANTLY I am doing this for ME... not for a reunion and not to impress... I am doing this so I will have a healthy and active life for a long time...  look for my new blog out next week...  

Second... I am missing vitamin D.  Actually, I am missing the ocean, ocean air and the ocean breeze... as well as outdoor activity!..  This has really sucked the life out of me since I have returned.  It is too hot outside to function.  

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SOLUTION:  To turn all of this around to a positive note... we, as a family, have to decide what exactly we are going to do to work towards our goal of getting back to the west coast...  The saga continues, however only until a plan is determined.

Note to self...  Sit down and work our a plan, including steps needed to forge forward... and do it!!

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Finally... not having order at home sets a domino effect on the rest of your life.  Can you believe it... I just finished unpacking!!  Can you say no motivation!??!!  

All I needed was a little bit of order to kick me in the "butt"!! and to open my eyes to what I am missing.  After all, don't they say?... "cleanliness is next to godliness"...

I can not allow myself to get into a slump!  Especially when there are things that I want from life!  Bottom line... I need to do something about it... otherwise... it will not happen on its own and I will be miserable!!

SOLUTION:  SOOO... Structure, Vitamin D, and order here I come!!!  

Never give up on dreams... catch them as they fly by.  author unknown.

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart.  Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.  ~ Carl Jung

"The first and the best victory is to conquer self." ~ Plato 

Blessings to all!!

294 days to go.

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Day 40 ~ ♪♫•Feeling Good! ♪♫• Just the Way That I Should!! ♪♫• So Good!♪♫•

Even though I have been at a standstill on my "weight loss challenge" the past three days... I am not going to let that, or anything else discourage me from doing what I am absolutely LOVING!!

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I was a little disappointed when for the third day in a row, I had not lost any weight!  ...great thing about that was, that I did gain any either!!  


Luckily I kept pretty busy today with an unexpected appointment, which thankfully kept my mind off of the "stand still" I have found myself in.


My day ended on a great note after seeing my father-in-law!!... he asked me in such an excited tone as to how many pounds I had lost... "so what are the numbers?"  I hesitated and responded with a little frown on my face... "I haven't lost any in the past three days, haven't gain anything either though." 



My father-in-law was like an "instant cheerleader!"  He told me not to worry about it and to continue with my work outs, not to get discourage, etc... and that I CAN DO IT!! 

Goes back to what I was telling you about how blessed I am in regards to my family!!  My father-in-law is so awesome!!  This man sets such a wonderful example of a Christian man, father and husband for all his children, myself and Calley included of course!  


He advises me, does not judge me, and when I have stuck my foot in my mouth, has looked the other way sort-of-speak!  I call him "Dad"... because that is what he is to me!!  And he respects me as well, even when it comes to Calley.     

Today was a great day!  I felt great about myself all day long!  

Faith isn't something I must have before I move in the direction of my dreams.  Instead, it's something that develops after I start moving.           author unknown

Blessings to all!

325 days to go.

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Here goes... Day 1

I never thought that Sarah Ferguson, the Duchess of York, and I would have something in common.  Seems we both have, for whatever reasons, hit a rut in our perspective lives.  


Lord knows that we have led different lives, that's for sure, but from what little I have seen of her interviews, what does make us alike is the unhappiness we feel.  


However, as mentioned in my Facebook status earlier tonight, the one difference we definitely have is that she has Oprah, Dr. Oz, Suze Orman and as my wonderful friend reminded me, she also has Dr. Phil to help her.  


I, on the other hand have Facebook.  As soon as I posted this to my status I was quickly reminded by my beautiful friends that I was ahead of the game having them (and FB). 

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Which now brings me here.  Finally after years of talking and Facebook-ing about writing a book I have decided instead to write a blog.   


I am committing to myself to write about my life's trials and tribulations, as well as all the good times for at least the next 365 days ("Julie and Julia" is my inspiration).  


Okay, so Julie wrote about her trials cooking through Julia's Mastering the Art of French Cooking... just a little different... 


But like Julie, I will be blogging for one year, 365 days, everyday.  Yes everyday.


I am going to do this for the following reasons:  1) Self-Therapy/Closure; 2) I am hoping that by writing my thoughts, feelings and my life experiences, my family, friends, and most importantly my children will one day understand why it is that I tick the way I do; and 3) I hope that by sharing my experiences to one day help another woman/mother, let her know she is not alone, and maybe just maybe, she will not have to endure the pain I have.

Blessings to all.

364 days to go.

I also want to add that all accounts, thoughts, feelings are those of my own how I have experienced them.  I will be honest and will not "sugar coat" anything.

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