Day 40 ~ ♪♫•Feeling Good! ♪♫• Just the Way That I Should!! ♪♫• So Good!♪♫•

Even though I have been at a standstill on my "weight loss challenge" the past three days... I am not going to let that, or anything else discourage me from doing what I am absolutely LOVING!!

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I was a little disappointed when for the third day in a row, I had not lost any weight!  ...great thing about that was, that I did gain any either!!  


Luckily I kept pretty busy today with an unexpected appointment, which thankfully kept my mind off of the "stand still" I have found myself in.


My day ended on a great note after seeing my father-in-law!!... he asked me in such an excited tone as to how many pounds I had lost... "so what are the numbers?"  I hesitated and responded with a little frown on my face... "I haven't lost any in the past three days, haven't gain anything either though." 



My father-in-law was like an "instant cheerleader!"  He told me not to worry about it and to continue with my work outs, not to get discourage, etc... and that I CAN DO IT!! 

Goes back to what I was telling you about how blessed I am in regards to my family!!  My father-in-law is so awesome!!  This man sets such a wonderful example of a Christian man, father and husband for all his children, myself and Calley included of course!  


He advises me, does not judge me, and when I have stuck my foot in my mouth, has looked the other way sort-of-speak!  I call him "Dad"... because that is what he is to me!!  And he respects me as well, even when it comes to Calley.     

Today was a great day!  I felt great about myself all day long!  

Faith isn't something I must have before I move in the direction of my dreams.  Instead, it's something that develops after I start moving.           author unknown

Blessings to all!

325 days to go.

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Day 9 ~ Does Anyone Know the Answer? ... What is Self-Worth?

For the past week I've been getting these subtle messages... whether it was said by someone I know, reported on a news show or discussed by Suze Orman on "Finding Sarah: From Royalty to The Real World" on OWN ... regardless, the message was the same.

How do you get self worth?  Look for the one thing that gives you IT.  ... Do you like yourself? ... We have to like and love oneself, and be happy with oneself before we can truly be happy in life.

For as much as I want to be able to answer these questions with a big fat YES!  I need to understand them first.  

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I know what "self" means, as well as the word "worth"- now I don't know about you, but when I put the two words together they become powerful, almost intimidating.  [So needless to say, I am still looking for IT.]  


When the question of liking oneself decides to show its ugly face, that in itself stirs up a sleuth of questions.  What I can say is, that I know I am a good person, with good morals and principles.  I know right from wrong, and help others before helping myself.  I put my children first and love them with all my heart and soul, unconditionally.  I am always there for my family.  I love and adore my husband, who always shows selflessness when it comes to his family and friends.~  He makes me want to be a better person.  Then...


Then I think of how bitter I have become.  I think of the times I have reacted before thinking or even said things I didn't mean.  Or take things out on people that don't deserve being the "scapegoat" of my hurt and/or simply what I had experienced earlier that day.  When I pass by a mirror, low and behold- there's a scowl on my face!  I never used to be like this!  I used to be a happy person [regardless of what I may had already experienced in my life]... yet that happiness seems from another time, another place, another life so long ago.  


Now, when I apologize to you tomorrow for saying or doing something that left you scratching your head because you do not know where that came from... please know that I have thought about what I did and realized that I was a "jerk" and more importantly I hope you do not hold it against me.  And yes, I have apologized (plenty of times) to my family and friends when I have realized I was wrong... there are a few of you out there that can attest to this too!  ;)


I know that I can not change what had happened yesterday... but what I can do is, with each day that is given to me, do the best possible to do something great that day... then maybe, just maybe I will find the answer to these questions.


Blessings to all.


356 days to go


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Here goes... Day 1

I never thought that Sarah Ferguson, the Duchess of York, and I would have something in common.  Seems we both have, for whatever reasons, hit a rut in our perspective lives.  


Lord knows that we have led different lives, that's for sure, but from what little I have seen of her interviews, what does make us alike is the unhappiness we feel.  


However, as mentioned in my Facebook status earlier tonight, the one difference we definitely have is that she has Oprah, Dr. Oz, Suze Orman and as my wonderful friend reminded me, she also has Dr. Phil to help her.  


I, on the other hand have Facebook.  As soon as I posted this to my status I was quickly reminded by my beautiful friends that I was ahead of the game having them (and FB). 

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Which now brings me here.  Finally after years of talking and Facebook-ing about writing a book I have decided instead to write a blog.   


I am committing to myself to write about my life's trials and tribulations, as well as all the good times for at least the next 365 days ("Julie and Julia" is my inspiration).  


Okay, so Julie wrote about her trials cooking through Julia's Mastering the Art of French Cooking... just a little different... 


But like Julie, I will be blogging for one year, 365 days, everyday.  Yes everyday.


I am going to do this for the following reasons:  1) Self-Therapy/Closure; 2) I am hoping that by writing my thoughts, feelings and my life experiences, my family, friends, and most importantly my children will one day understand why it is that I tick the way I do; and 3) I hope that by sharing my experiences to one day help another woman/mother, let her know she is not alone, and maybe just maybe, she will not have to endure the pain I have.

Blessings to all.

364 days to go.

I also want to add that all accounts, thoughts, feelings are those of my own how I have experienced them.  I will be honest and will not "sugar coat" anything.

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