Sunday, July 1, 2012

Day 389 ~ Bad Week... Great Weekend!

I didn't get my twelfth video today... sad face. 

However... that's okay.  This allows me to recap a little of what's been going on.

First off ... I have been making great strides in getting closer to God.  This 22 day challenge with I Am Second has been a great experience.  It has helped me understand things and life, as well as my learning to put Christ first in my life.

I also feel that this has also been a healing process for me with my outlook on my life's experience with God and the Church.

Now for the interesting part.  All week, or rather since I started my 22 day challenge, I have been praying and seeking God.  I really want a relationship with Christ.  I have been praying for signs... I have been praying for passion... passion for Christ.  I want to feel a true love for God.

With that said, this past week... well the best way for me to describe it... one word... sucked!  Every day that passed was more challenging than the day before.  I had turmoil at every turn.  ARGH!!  Every where I turned... and then I blew up!  Yup.  There is only so much a person can take.

Looking back... I could have definitely have handled it better... however... it is what it is.

I must add that this may have been a bad week... however it ended with a fabulous weekend.  Will elaborate on this at the end of my challenge...

Finally Sunday arrives!!  YAY!! I could not get to Church fast enough today.  I knew I had to hear God's word after the week I had... and I knew I needed to hear a message.

At the end of the service I was rejuvenated.  I felt that Pastor Lee had been preaching directly to me.  Has that ever happened to you?  It was crazy!

So... my message I received... Turn to God!  

Did I do that last week?  No.  Although I did pray a little.  However, I did not turn to Him.  I really need to turn to Him in my dark times, as opposed to listening to all the negative thoughts in my head.  It totally made sense. 

It, turning to God... well it's all about surrendering to Him as well.  {and} needless to say, I am a control freak and need to relinquish all rights to my life to God.

Because, He is First... I am Second.

We are Second when we put Jesus First. Seconds are bold to lift up Jesus and tell others. Are you ready to become a stronger Second?

I challenge YOU to take the I Am Second [22] Day Challenge... Can you spare maybe fifteen minutes in a day?
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”  Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.  ~Matthew 18:21-22 (NIV)

[here's to you finding your... ]


... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Lisa Fyfe said...

I admire your journey! Love your candid voice.

Michelle G said...

I can really relate to this post, Carla. There was a point when I was trying to get closer to God and like you, I just wanted to "feel" him all the time(my words for it) I've fallen away in the last several months and I really need to get back to it. Don't you think it's funny that when we are having the hardest time, it also seems to be harder to give up and go to Him? And that's the point when we REALLY need Him the most! It seems like we're backwards half the time. Anyway, thanks for the post!

Karen Dawkins said...

I just finished that book, and my son's PUBLIC high school football team is reading it together (optional participation). He loves it, and it has reminded him that he only has to do his best and live for Jesus. Everything else will work out.

You know, when you choose to live for God and take that stand, Satan is going to sneak up and bite at your heels, right? Don't rely on those feelings in the midst of a bad week. Welcome the challenge as part of your journey to complete trust in God.


Shannon Milholland said...

Isn't it amazing how hard weeks lead us to hide our heart in His? He is our safe place. He is our shelter. So thankful you're running to Him.

Pepper said...

Oh, you are heaven sent! Now, I feel you're speaking directly to me. I've been having a tough couple of days myself. Ok, I shall turn to God. I will happily surrender everything to Him, lift up my woes. Thanks, Carla! :)