Saturday, July 28, 2012

Day 416 ~ #9 of My 30 Days of Truth...

My 30 Days of Truth challenge   I will admit that I changed one question and changed a few curse words... other than that the challenge is intact. 

Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but drifted away.


I have two answers... 


... sure there are many friends, childhood friends, that I wish time would have stood still for... or better yet we remained as close as we used to be...


However...


Once again... after much thought and consideration... as mentioned... I have two answers...


My first answer is my parents... there was a day and time that I felt secure in their love, life was so innocent.  But starting with their separation and then their divorce... well... our family fell apart... grew apart... and was never the same again.  We definitely drifted away.


My second answer is my sons... with my sons... well there was a day and time that we were like peas and carrots... never apart... then came my separation from their father and then the divorce... well... our family fell apart... grew apart... and was never the same again.


The only difference from my parents and my sons, is unlike my parents and I... my sons and I still have a chance.  {and} I will do whatever it takes to one day have my boys back.


My parents and I... well my father passed March 31, 2006... and my mother... well she left me long ago or rather because of her OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) and whatever other ailments, as well as her obsession with my sister, her bipolar behavior, her antics and ailments of her own... well let's just say that there isn't any room in her life for me, let alone my family.  So sad.


So sad indeed.  But the way I look at it is that she is the one missing out on some really good quality people- my children.


Although I am really doing my best to forgive both my parents {a constant work in progress}, my focus is and will always be my children... my sons and my daughter.


SO all the while my boys and I may be experiencing a little distance between us at the time... this is only temporary....


This too shall pass.
Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him. ~Psalm 127:3
what's next? ..
Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 : Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 : Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 : Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 : Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 : Something you hope you never have to do. 
Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you horribly.
Day 09 : Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 : Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 : Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 : A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you've tried living without it.
Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 : A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 : Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 : What do you think of religion?  Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 : Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 : (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 : Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 : Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 : Name a decision you made that caused a chain of events that would not have happened if it wasn't for that decision.
Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Hey if you want to join along... well let me know in a comment and I'll visit your challenge each day.  We could even link up our blogs.  wink, wink.  No.. seriously we could.

Here's to 30 Days of Truth!

I am second.

[here's to you finding your... ]

Peace...


... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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4 comments:

Czjai Reyes-Ocampo said...

Yes, all of that will pass, Carla. And everything always happens for a reason. Sending you my love and prayers! :)

mail4rosey said...

Separation can really wreak havoc on so many areas of a family, even when it was an absolute necessary to have take place. I wish you the best of luck in your goal to mend and repair with your sons.

Shannon Milholland said...

Praying God would heal the fractures in your relationships as only He can.

Claire Jennings said...

Your boys are lucky to have a mom who cares as much as you do. I am sure they will come back to you.