Friday, July 20, 2012

Day 408 ~ #1 of My 30 Days of Truth...

SO here goes Day 1 of my 30 Days of Truth challenge   I will admit that I changed one question and changed a few curse words... other than that the challenge is intact. 

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.

Wow... So, I have been thinking about this all day... What do I hate about myself?  hmmmm...

After much thought and consideration, I would have to say that there are two things that I hate about myself... I just couldn't make up my mind between the two.

Can I say dislike?  "Hate" is such a strong word.


First thing I hate about myself is that I am not confident enough about myself.  I second guess myself, always have.  Unsure if I am saying the right thing or doing the right thing.  I think this is part of wanting to please others .  You know, not wanting to ruffle anyone's feathers and all.

Tied for first is the fact that I get intimidated very easily.  I really do not like this about myself.  I pretty much can stand on my own, and believe very strongly in all that I believe in...  But get me around someone with a very strong personality, a man no less... and I coward down like a baby.  This I know for sure I can thank my father for.  He was very threatening to me, plus it didn't help that I had witnessed him hit my mother several times as a child... 

Okay.. make it three things I don't like about myself... because as I sat here writing this I realized that along with a lack of self esteem/confidence and intimidation.. is my quick anger.  It has come out more so in recent years (the beginnings of menopause for sure!) and I am not liking it.  I will blow up at something... and then after the fact ask myself where the heck that came from.  Was that my evil twin sister or what?!  My husband says its okay because at least I am aware about it and realize it... and I am trying to work on it and snip it at the bud.  So... I guess he does have a point... after all I could be a bitch and not care about it at all!  HAHAHA   Thank God that's not the case.

So there you have it... not one, not two, but three things I do not like about myself.

what's next? ...
Day 02 : Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 : Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 : Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 : Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 : Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you horribly.
Day 09 : Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 : Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 : Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 : A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you've tried living without it.
Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 : A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 : Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 : What do you think of religion?  Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 : Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 : (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 : Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 : Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 : Name a decision you made that caused a chain of events that would not have happened if it wasn't for that decision.
Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Soo...  here goes another challenge and by the looks of this one... well I have a feeling I may get more out of this than just a 30 day challenge.

Hey if you want to join along... well let me know in a comment and I'll visit your challenge each day.  We could even link up our blogs.  wink, wink.  No.. seriously we could.

Here's to my 30 Days of Truth challenge!

I am second.

[here's to you finding your... ]


... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Victoria Staples said...

Nice challenge.. It's good to be reflective. I agree with your husband, knowing about our faults and working on them is all we can do. I think the one thing I dislike about myself is my fear of public speaking... what to say. I would sit by myself at a party instead of talking to people if I knew no one there. My husband on the other hand can talk to anyone. I am getting better at it.. Someone once told me people love to talk about themselves, so ask questions that allow them to talk and be a good listener. That I am... a good listener!

Audra Michelle said...

ok - you may have hooked me in to doing this challenge as well.... :)

Columba Lisa Smith said...

I hate the same thing about myself - I am such a wimp around strong personalities. I'm working on it, though. Lately I've been realizing it's no reason to beat ourselves up. You couldn't help what your dad did, and you and I will emerge stronger.

Anonymous said...

Great post, I need to do this also!

Courtney G said...

I just never go there...finding the things I dislike about myself. Life is too short, and what is that quote about worrying being such a waste of time? Plus everything is a learning experience that you only get once, right? I say embrace everything, good or bad!

Sara Prickett said...

I love this challenge. Self reflection is a wonderful way to learn about yourself and to grow as well. I have struggled with my own insecurities for years and have learned to let go only recently. Thank you so much for sharing! =)

mail4rosey said...

Sounds like you're lucky to have a good hubby too. :)

I enjoy reading these. They're fun and do help you get to know the writer better.