Day 434 ~ #26 of My 30 Days of Truth...

My 30 Days of Truth challenge   I will admit that I changed one question and changed a few curse words... other than that the challenge is intact. 

Day 26: Have you ever thought of giving up on life? If so, when?...

The darkest time of my life was when I was fighting for my children.  My sons.

There were many dark times.

There were many sad times.

There were many, many lonely times too.

There were many times that for a half of a nano second the thought of not being around would be so much easier... 

I did say a nano second right? Yes a nano second. 

A nanosecond (ns) is one billionth of a second (10⁻⁹ or ¹/_{1,000,000,000} s). One nanosecond is to one second as one second is to 31.7 years.

So basically, as soon as I felt so low that giving up barely {and I mean barely} entered my thoughts... more like one syllable barely touching my lips... well I knew that basically this is not and will never be an option! 

Fighting for my sons, as I still continue to fight for a healthy relationship today, is and always will be a reason for me to live!  Always will be.

I will never stop wanting my sons by my side... I will never stop until God himself tells me it is my last breath.  I will never stop.  Never.  DId you get that I would NEVER stop?  wink, wink.

With God's will, I will continue to live... I will continue to love {my sons}... I will continue to live for {my sons}... I will continue to breathe because of {my sons}.  Of course, it goes without saying that I will do the same for my daughter, she is not excluded from any of this.

With God's will.

Sons are a heritage from the LORD, children a reward from him.  ~Psalm 127:3 (NIV)

Where I've been and where I'm going next...  

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 : Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 : Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 : Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 : Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 : Something you hope you never have to do. 

Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you horribly.

Day 09 : Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 : Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 : Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 : Write a letter to a hero that has let you down.

Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 : A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 : Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 : What do you think of religion?  Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 : Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 : (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 : Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life. 

Day 24 : Make a playlist for someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 : Name a decision you made that caused a chain of events that would not have happened if it wasn't for that decision.
Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

 Here's to 30 Days of Truth!

I am second.

[here's to you finding your... ]
Peace...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Day 433 ~ #25 of My 30 Days of Truth...

My 30 Days of Truth challenge   I will admit that I changed one question and changed a few curse words... other than that the challenge is intact. 

Day 25: The reason you believe you are still alive today...

There is no question about it... there are two reasons four reasons I believe I am alive today... no questions about it!

1. God
2. My first born
3. My second born
4. My third born

I have to be honest... there have been times in my life... okay I'll give you an example... wink, wink...

How about the time... it was the summer of 1978, just shortly after all the publicity of the Hillside Stranglers. They were killing women of all ages left and right in Southern California... I and another fifteen year old girl decided to hitchhike from the San Fernando Valley (a suburb just north of Los Angeles) to Yosemite... a 310 mile voyage...  All I can say is OH MY G!!  Not only that, but we hitchhiked back too.  My family clueless... 

All I have to say is that God had to have been watching over me! and I hope not to be as clueless as my parents were with me, with my own daughter.

As the years passed I have been faced with many other difficulties and I have to say that all three of my children have watched over me without their knowledge... I would have to definitely say that they have saved my life on more than one occasion.

There have been many difficult circumstances in my life, some that have put me in fetal position too! which have included the loss of my sons by my side.  However... the thought of my children... the visions of their little faces have given me unknown strength to move on and to better myself.

As I sit here and look back at all the crazy things I have done, all I can say is that I am so grateful to still be alive, watch my children grow into wonderful human beings and be able to make a difference.

That's right... I still have to make a difference... help someone in need...


Why are you still alive today?

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile. ~Unknown

Where I've been and where I'm going next...  

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 : Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 : Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 : Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 : Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 : Something you hope you never have to do. 

Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you horribly.

Day 09 : Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 : Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 : Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 : Write a letter to a hero that has let you down.

Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 : A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 : Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 : What do you think of religion?  Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 : Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 : (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 : Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life. 

Day 24 : Make a playlist for someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 : Name a decision you made that caused a chain of events that would not have happened if it wasn't for that decision.
Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

 Here's to 30 Days of Truth!

I am second.

[here's to you finding your... ]
Peace...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Took It... Making It... Living It... My Life .  © 2012  U.S Copyright Laws apply.

Day 414 ~ #7 of My 30 Days of Truth...

My 30 Days of Truth challenge   I will admit that I changed one question and changed a few curse words... other than that the challenge is intact. 

Day 7: Someone who has made your life living for.

Having given this much thought... I would have to say my children. 


For many years my sons gave me strength... they were and still are my reasons to live.


However I have to add that in more recent years, five and a half to be exact... I have to say that my daughter Calley has been my saving grace.


Seems that my relationship with my sons has, for a lack of a better description- has seen its better days.  I constantly have to work at it and not give up on them.  I do want to say that my eldest and I are working on reconstruct... no not reconstruct, but rebuilding our relationship.


So as I was saying, Calley has been my saving grace... because without her I don't know how I would have managed my lack of a relationship with my sons.


Finally, with my husband at my side... well let's say anyone {else} in their right mind would have left me years ago!  LOL!  In all honesty Dean has had to see me go through a lot of pain... and I thank God everyday for him.


I thank God everyday for my husband and my children.

what's next? ...

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 : Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 : Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 : Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 : Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 : Something you hope you never have to do. 

Day 07 : Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 : Someone who made your life hell, or treated you horribly.
Day 09 : Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 : Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 : Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 : Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 : A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 : A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 : Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you've tried living without it.
Day 16 : Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 : A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 : Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 : What do you think of religion?  Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 : Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 : (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 : Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 : Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 : The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 : Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 : Name a decision you made that caused a chain of events that would not have happened if it wasn't for that decision.
Day 29 : Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Hey if you want to join along... well let me know in a comment and I'll visit your challenge each day.  We could even link up our blogs.  wink, wink.  No.. seriously we could.

Here's to my 30 Days of Truth challenge!

I am second.

[here's to you finding your... ]

Peace...

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

Images are courtesy of google or Bing images.  Some images maybe labeled property of Carla Barila Karam and of this blog, Took It... Making It... Living It... My Life .  © 2012  U.S Copyright Laws apply.

Day 82 ~ Life Happens Here...

courtesy of Bing images

With all that is at hand ... I wanted to share some quotes that I have taken a liking to...

A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.
Charles Darwin

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha 

Every man dies. Not every man really lives.
William Wallace 

Life is half spent before we know what it is.
George Herbert 

Rejoice with your family in the beautiful land of life!  ~Albert Einstein

You don't choose your family.  They are God's gift to you, as you are to them.  ~Desmond Tutu

  

 Blessings to all!!

283 days to go

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