Did you ever see a love one falling and want to pick them up. Or you see an accident about to happen and you cringe at the sight. As an outsider to another person's life, we sometimes witness self harm by others and want to help... even wonder as to why someone would inflict pain upon themselves, slowly even killing themselves in the process? What would you do? What would you say?
This is my message...
I sit here looking back on our time together after so many, many years... so many years of turmoil... so many years of being at odds... so many years of being played against one another... and I am saddened.
Life's experiences leave a "mark" on a person. Not only that, but you can even say that each experience changes a person just a bit each time. Whether good or bad, life's experiences makes us who we are. and/or rather who we end up being.
However, we are given choices. At each moment in our lives, we are free to make choices. Down to the toilet paper we use. You know what? Sometimes we are even given too many choices. We, as citizens of the United States, pretty much can make decisions for ourselves. We are very fortunate to have the choice of how we want to live as well. Now I know other variables come into play, but let's just keep this simple.
Now... generally speaking, there are life's boundaries, parameters, rules, laws... however or whatever you want to call it... bottom line being, we need to be respective of one another, and of one self. We can't harm one another or one self, either. If someone was hurting someone else or even themselves, what would you do? If I heard or saw something violent or harmful, I would call for help.
I see the sadness in your eyes... I see the loneliness... I see the pain... I see life's "marks" on you. I also see bad choices. I see how those bad choices affect our life together, time spent together or lack of it.
When I realized that expectations were made by all for time to be spent together, and that I could not control the choices you made, I was saddened even more. On top of that, I discovered that I became a tad angry because I really did want that time together~ quality time.
Excuses can be made and stories are changed each time they are told, but a person's actions speak loud and clear and are seen by all. There were moments of our time together that brought a smile to my face. A moment that I saw a strong willed, beautiful giving person. However the time was short lived. It was evident that a choice was made which transformed your being and your spirit.
I pray that you find the courage to see what has been seen by all, before everything golden that has been gained, is lost. I pray that you find the faith to believe that YOU do have the strength within yourself to do anything you set your mind to.
Choose to live. Choose to love. Choose to experience life as it should be, embracing life's treasures as you experience them. Choose to have faith and hope. Choose to give it to the Lord.
But whatever you do... foremost above all, do choose to do it for yourself, for your happy self.
With all my love and faith...
That is what I have to say.
Excuses can be made and stories are changed each time they are told, but a person's actions speak loud and clear, and are seen by all. ~ Carla Barila Karam
Blessings to all!!
162 days to go...
PS... Sons, I love and miss you. To the moon and stars above and back. You are my sunshines.
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