Thursday, May 3, 2012

Day 330 ~ Finding My Purpose

I have so much to say tonight and am having trouble trying to figure out where to start.  Chuckle.  No Seriously.  How about at the beginning?  lol!  {humor/sarcasm- joking? lol-- whatever!!!} haha 

I started tonight's post like any other night by "typing" the day in the title... "Day 3-3-0"...
[okay... that's it!... do we say  "I am typing?", "I am keyboarding?" or "is it a keyboard we are typing on?" ]
I'm not green at computers either.  I've had a computer, worked with computers, been around computers, build... fixed... sold computers... I have had computers all over the place... used them as desks for my kids... used them as lunch tables for my kids... I, have even eaten meals on computers... all since the mid 80s... all thanks to my father.  Come to think of it, in all those years never have we referred to "it" as "keyboarding"... maybe "data entry", which my "typing", "stroking of the keys" or "hitting the keys"... is not.  I am not doing data entry, I am trying to put out a decent thought.  (attempt at humor, sarcasm, or a combination of both, lol!) Whatever... I am "typing".  I am going to call it "typing" because I am just that old (haha)... besides it flows better.  There.  That's that.  lol
"Day 3-3-0"... WOW!  I have to share with you that I just had the last 330 days flash before me.  Honestly... I feel unbelievable!  I feel I have grown so much... granted I have so much more to go... but...

It's like all my "aha" moments have come together similar to a choir singing "Hallelujah!"  

I have really been applying and repeating to myself all that I have learned, and continue to learn on Oprah's LifeClass... as I shared with you on Day 326, which you can read about it here.

The flash was about all I have shared here... my good days... my bad days... memories... experiences... love... anger... hurt... deception... I even had some dark days too.  Huh!  I even stopped talking to "certain" family or people... lol!  It's done.  It's over.  It's in the past.

Today, I think about everything that has hurt me... my trials and tribulations and I accept it all.  YES, I accept it.  The pain that I have endured throughout my life has shown me that if I did not love so much... care so much... then I would not be capable of loving so much.  

[In other words, if I am not complicating things to much here by elaborating that I must love a whole lot, and I must care so much... because otherwise it would not have hurt so much!]

Instead of telling the same story over and over again, I am going to change it around a bit. Because of the hurt, experience and knowledge I have gained from my "experiences"... I will use this to help other families get through their troubled times.

So... as I look at "Day 3-3-0" I think of how I have grown as a person.  I think of the faith that has grown inside of me... I think of how grateful I am for being who and where I am.

I am here for a purpose... and it's time to put it to use!  wink, wink.

The purpose of our lives is to be happy.
~Dalai Lama
The main purpose of life is to live rightly, think rightly, act rightly. The soul must languish when we give all our thought to the body. ~Mahatma Gandhi

Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them.
~Dalai Lama


35 days to go...  

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Damyanti said...

Those quotes are going to grace my FB wall.

Thanks for sharing this, and it is awesome to visit you for the first time.

Erin said...

I can tell that you have learned so much about yourself on this journey. What a blessing to realize that the hurts you have endured have been turned into blessings and you have learned how to love better!

Jenn said...

What a journey you've been on! I think freedom comes from acceptance, and it sounds like you're there :-)

Have a great weekend!