Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Day 343 ~ It's Hard Work Being Happy...

WoW!  Just one word.. wow.

So this is me picking myself up, and brushing myself off.

These have been a couple of rough days and unbelievably enlightening all the same.  It sucks hurting... however we can't... or rather, I can't allow the sadness and pain that I feel (for my losses) to take over who I am and the happiness I am trying to build.

Today I spent the better part of my day re-cooping and talking to a very dear friend of mine.  We met when we were both pregnant with our first borns... who were born a week apart.  {and} we've been friends ever since.

Having shared that with you~ it's only a given that she has seen the highs and lows of the last twenty-five years of my life.  She has even gone to battle for me.  wink, wink. Literally.  {and} More or less I to her.

Have you ever been in a dark place (sad) and your phone has rung... you look at it and then ignore the call?  There is no way that you feel like talking to anyone... however talking to someone is the best thing you can do.

Listen, you don't have to convince me ... the last thing I wanted to do is answer my phone... however knowing that the other person on the line knew everything that had happened to me.  Meaning I did not have to stop to explain... she just knew... made it a little easier to answer.
I knew that my "sister from another mister" was just the person to talk to.  Not having a traditional family, I have always looked to my friends and their families for advice and life's lessons... and well let's just say that my friend was someone to look to.  She is a wonderful, funny and all 'round great person!

As a side note... there were other great people that reached out to me today.  and if you called, please, please do not be offended if I did not pick up.  The fact that you reached out to me means the world to me.  I will not forget your caring.

So... needless to say after three hours, thirteen minutes and twenty-three seconds I was able to "stop my sobbing" {as the Pretenders would say}... wipe off the tears... catch my breath... and regroup.  [and yes, you read it right, we talked for three hours, thirteen minutes and twenty-three seconds]

I wanted to share some of my sweet friend's wise words [that helped me pick myself up]... "it's hard work being happy." and "sometimes you need to take time off to be sad... and that's okay."  ... "it's okay to be sad".

So... it's back to work for me.  Back to working on being happy.

It's hard work being happy.  ~Jeannie Nohles Ellis

(here's to you finding your...)

22 days to go...  

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  

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Czjai Reyes-Ocampo said...

Hugs, Carla!
I hope you won't stay sad for too long, though. A smile suits your face better.
Much love from across the globe! :)

Susan said...

Hi Carla. I'm so sorry to hear that you had such a rough happens. And I, like you, always run to the solace of a good friend. Sometimes a talk can really do wonders.
Hope today is better for you! Hugs.

Perspective Parenting said...

Carla, I'm so sorry to hear of your sadness, but am glad to know you have a friend who can help you see through the fog. You said you have had many ups and downs...and today you are in a down..or yesterday. Which means the up is next to come.

Anne @ Green Eggs and Moms said...

Awww, I'm so sorry that you are sad :( I know how you feel about just wanting to be alone.. if you ever need an ear, I'm here :D

Shannon Milholland said...

I really believe that God ordains those calls. He knows exactly when we need to hear from someone and inspires their heart to think of us. How cool is He, really? :) Glad you picked up the phone!


your friend is right. Some days you NEED to be sad. Without the bad we cannot fully appreciate the good. I hated it when after we lost my 7 year old niece, then my oldest sister and then just a few months later my 20 year old nephew, and yet people told me I should look to the positive. I just needed a day to cry and process the grief. We need days to accept our heart break! We can't heal if we can't express it.

So take your sad day. Work through your sorrow, and THEN go back to working on being happy. Yes it is hard being happy when you have so much pain. I hope it gets easier as the days go by.

Anonymous said...

Carla, I am praying that you will pick yourself up and be happy, you know it is hard to be happy sometimes, we are human, our minds have us sometimes in a twisted state, so glad that you people to go to when you need to talk.


she must be a good friend... those are very wise words she shared with you!

I have suffered with depression on and off... I know the darkness which you speak of!

Here is to hunting the happy :) One of the things that I know today, when I begin feeling sad or depressed, it will pass!