Sunday, April 22, 2012

Day 319 ~ Taking Back My Life, Making It My Own!

I feel so blessed to have some healthy and long-life genes, I'm sure it will come in handy as I get older.  You see I have the honor to have had two great-great aunts who both lived to be well over 100 years old, and their niece, my maternal grandmother is two years shy of her own centennial... and each one of them healthy! .. to the very end.  No senility what-so-ever.  I should be that blessed.  

To be very honest with you, I doubt very seriously that I will live that long myself.  Lol!!  Honestly... I just partied too hard in my youth and did not treat my body as a temple as my predecendants did.  They barely had one or two glasses of wine a year (yes, YEAR) and took care of their ailments via the natural way, no chemical, prescriptions and such.  Holistic all the way.  That's how it was done.

On a positive note... they do say that 40 is the new 20, 50 the new 30, and so on... there is still hope.  lol.  So... I will make healthy, educated decisions for my family and me, and live my life to its fullest.

I have to share with you that in the last two weeks I have been conquering so many issues.  I really have been diving into my healing process (in regards to the loss I have suffered in my life and "life" in general) and can't really decide what "it" is I am going through.  

All I know is that I do not want Calley (my little girl) to grow up with a sad mommy or a grouchy one at that, and one who no less is starting a new phase in her life (Perimenopause).  Oy my poor little girl, lol.

Some may say that I am going through some kind of a mid-life crisis... however I disagree with that terminology being that I do not know how long I will live, and I may have very well passed that "mid" point or have yet to reach it. Big smile. 

What I do know is that I definitely suffered many years of a post traumatic depression, including blocking out negative memories which to day I have no recollection of.  

Lets review... (lol)  ... 

You know what... I was just about to do a brief recap of all the bull shit (sorry for the language, but I have to call it what it is) I have gone through, but have decided not to.  Enough is enough! 

I will however tell you that... I have been listening to a lot of Oprah's Lifeclass (yet another plug for Oprah, including the likes of Tony Robbins, Bishop TD Jakes, Ram Dass and Oprah herself (to mention a few) and what I have learned from them in my "aha" moments is...
I accept all the bull shit I have seen and been through to be in my past...  
I accept the fact that my past is my past and I can not do anything about it...   
I have no hope for my past to be different, it is what it is... 
I have learned from it...  
I have grown from it...  
I will no longer be defined by the sad, trial and tribulations, the stories of my life...
~ Carla Baril√° Karam

A rebirth of sorts.  A cleansing.  A post traumatic rejuvenation.  A greet and meet really, a getting to know myself  Taking Back My Life and Making It My Own, and it's all been documented in this blog in one way or another.

Funny... I was just thinking, how long does it take a person to go through something like this?  Do I put a time limit on healing?  or... As they say, do I take it 'one day at a time"?  Am I completely healed?  NO WAY!  Maybe I just answered my own question? 

Another "aha moment" I have had is that by blogging of my goals in itself has been a motivating tool for me.  It is like I have to not only complete my goal, my challenge for myself, but for my blog and its readers and followers as well.

With that said, I have a new goal/ challenge to announce but will do so soon.  

You know what?  I heard Tony Robbins say that we should not say "should" or "will"... you are to say that you "are" and "am"... and WITH THAT SAID... I will announce my new challenge, my new goal in next Sunday's post.


Blogging A to Z Challenge April 2012... What will "T" have for us tomorrow?



46 days to go...  

... for a, l & c.  You are my sunshine(s).  


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8 comments:

Sharkbytes (TM) said...

Best to you as you move forward. I'm trying to visit all the A-Z Challenge blogs this month. My alphabet is at myqualityday.blogspot.com

Jenny Reibert-Wolfe said...

I have some of those same genes and some of that same outlook about them. That sort of lifestyle seemed to have ended with my great-grandparents, but I think through acknowledging my own BS I have managed to get my kids to a place where they will take care of themselves and create their own messes instead of building upon mine (which IMO is how my family has run for the past two generations.)

I am glad I found your blog, and I am glad that there are people who are sharing intimately about life like you are :)

The Budget Diet said...

I have to agree that blogging about our lives is sometimes the best motivation! I once did a review on a diet book, and blogged about my progress each week...talk about feeling accountable!

Karen Dawkins said...

Keep going!!!! Healing is a process. You are so wise to be taking the time to heal the dark corners of your heart. One day, complete joy. Praying for you and lifting your needs to Jesus.

ReviewsSheROTE Pamela R said...

learn and grow...that about sums it all up!!!

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momto8 said...

good luck on your journey....

Nexlegacy Performance Institute said...

So happy that you decided to take back your life! You're on roll and you can't go no where but up. Life is a journey so take one day at a time :) Im telling you this because I feel ya on a lot of what you were saying.

SN: I LOVE Oprah's Life Lessons!