This is Day 5 of my challenge... {and} my fifth video...
Josh Hamilton: I am Second
As I really look back on my life, I have to admit that after losing my sons, I too was self destructive. Going out every night {even on work nights}... dating anyone that would date me... drinking most nights... sometimes even coming home soooo late that I barely would get an hour of sleep, my eyes would be burning from no sleep and I suspect that there may have been a couple of times that I may have even smelled like alcohol.
What can I say that already has not been said? ... wait... who am I to say anything about Josh's life anyways?
To have been given a gift (great athlete), and been able to live out a dream (baseball)... and then to have been at the right place at the wrong time ("...A dump truck ran a red light as we were turning left and plowed into us and over the next four to five years I went down the path of destruction ..." Josh Hamilton quote from I Am Second interiew) resulting in the lose of your parents and baseball... how devastating!
The only devastating loss I have had is that of my sons in my life... . Granted my sons are alive none the less... and God willing I will be reunited one day... I don't mean to babble, but when it comes to devastating loss that would have to be it.
As I really look back on my life, I have to admit that after losing my sons, I too was self destructive. Going out every night {even on work nights}... dating anyone that would date me... drinking most nights... sometimes even coming home soooo late that I barely would get an hour of sleep, my eyes would be burning from no sleep and I suspect that there may have been a couple of times that I may have even smelled like alcohol.
I hit rock bottom when I lost my house (I was renting) after having loss my job and not being able to pay my rent (to my ex-boss) and other bills.
Funny,,, I remember "approaching" a local church {before having loss my house,} however I don't really think I ever really surrendered to God back then and eventually veered away..
Fast forward to today at Church... I happened to be praying just about this. I was so in the moment praying for my sons, my family, those in need... I praised my Lord ... and I prayed... and I praised Him some more... I have never felt so peaceful... I have never felt so sure that He was taking care of everything for me. I felt as if I truly surrendered to Him for the first time.
He is First... I am Second.
He is First... I am Second.
We are Second when we put Jesus First. Seconds are bold to lift up Jesus and tell others. Are you ready to become a stronger Second?
I challenge YOU to take the I Am Second [22] Day Challenge... Can you spare maybe fifteen minutes in a day?
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. ~James 4:7 (NIV)
I AM SECOND.
[here's to you finding your... ]
Peace...
... for a, l & c. You are my sunshine(s).
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5 comments:
I am still amazed at how you managed to pick yourself up from the doldrums. You are a strong woman... a really strong Second! :)
Oh, I wish I can get there too. I have to really surrender myself to God.
Wow! Thanks for sharing all you've been through! What an inspiration!
Thank you Carla for sharing such a personal part of your life. I "second" Pepper "You are a strong woman...a REALLY strong second!" xoxo
good post!
Carla, you are so inspiring, and I think you are so amazing to pick yourself up like that!
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